crutches

i once felt so close to you

i was at my most vulnerable

alone, broken in more ways than one, and you wrapped yourself around me

i never felt more safe than in your hands, but still terrified i was a burden to you

your touch, your eyes peering above your mask, both endearing and intimidating all in the same breath

you’ve taught me love like i haven’t known before

love that is hard, love that is scary, love that is honest, love that trusts.

this crescendo, though, feels shattering

two months ago i felt safest with you and now i feel you fading

you saw how much i am

you saw how broken i am

i thought i could relax, but i was mistaken

you’re running away

and my ankle is swollen

i can’t chase you anymore